I have crossed over, almost...

I went to the mall after work today because I felt like shopping.  (I got off work at 6:15 and didn't get home until 10:00!)

So I went to Anchor Blue because I saw two cute outfits in the window.  I tried on 5 shirts 2 pairs of jeans and a dress (two different sizes of each) and they all looked horrible on me!  Then I went to Wet Seal, again cute outfits in the window, and tried on probably three outfits, all horrible.  Then I went into Macy's and then JCPenny in the Juniors departments.  Lots of cute clothes and dresses.  ALL HORRIBLE!  So I started getting upset and sad and felt fat and ugly and all the negative things a girl can feel about herself.  Then I started thinking about why I have been having such a difficult time shopping recently (this is probably the third shopping trip in the last few months that got me frustrated) and I realized its because I don't have a category. 

I can no longer shop in the Juniors department because I'm not young enough and I don't have the body of a 16 year old.  (I also don't have the same body as the mannequins that wear the clothes which totally contributes to my negative feelings)  But I also can't shop in the women's department because that is where my mom shops, and I don't have a mom body, yet.  And although my mom always wears really cute and flattering clothes for her... they are for her, not me. 

So, I have no category.  I went into about 7 different stores and tried on lots of clothes and just got more and more frustrated the more I shopped.  Finally I realized that I needed to stop shopping like I am in high school.  So I started window shopping the stores that I rarely go into because they seem to old.  Well, I didn't find anything there either.  Again, mom's clothes, not mine.

I ended up going in to Gap.  I like Gap but I rarely shop there because they are expensive.  I bought two pairs of pants and three shirts.  They all fit me so well, I love them!  I would have bought more items but I do have some restraint ;)  One of the pairs of pants I bought is the curvy version on Gap pants.  I have never considered myself curvy but I guess I am because they fit me better than any pants I have ever owned.

I may not have a department store category but I do have Gap, and hopefully I can find more stores which are similar to Gap.

So endeth my days of Anchor Blue, Wet Seal, Forever 21 and all the juniors sections of every department store.